do you ever feel small? i do sometimes, and today i feel small. i am the 20 year old me that knows what's eventually going to happen in my family. my father is terminally ill, brain tumor, oliogodendroglimoa; after 22 years i haven't forgotten the name. i know he's toward the end, i know he's dying. i don't want to face it, so i hide. i hide in college going about my routine because it's what my mom said my dad wants. but i feel like i've abandoned my family. i'm not there to help, and i know they need my help. my dad is dead weight to pick-up, and he is not the same because of the major brain surgery and all the radiation. the tumor is consuming his entire brain, and nothing will stop it. they have told him to get his affairs in order and they will make him as comfortable as they can until the end. i am small. i know others think of me as loud, crazy, and confident, bu...
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